:'(
this post tht im writing now is meant for
Farit Ismeth Bin Azhar .
We went through quite some thing together fr the past 2 months and it all ended
on 8 June at 1 am whn you send tht msg . I was devastated whn i read tht msg early in the morning and my sister was shocked to find me crying . yes you can say im a crybaby tht is because i treasure ths freaking relationship . but you on the other hand is ending it jst like tht because i guess you can no longer take the pressure ? yes im sorry if i give you too much pressure . or you cant take it if i cry because of you . not always right . whn we fight i dont cry . only on major issues i do . i admit its not your fault . its partially mine because i guess i gave too much pressure . i really dont want this thing to end . sigh . you always say youre a useless boyfr and stuff . well i dont think tht way only you do . everyone tht knws we broke up dont knw the main reason . tht includes me ! you tend to look on the negative aspect but not on the bright side . wouldnt things turn out better if we have looked on the bright side ? i asked you to make a choice on whether you want to stay in this relationship or not because i couldnt take it anymore because you asked fr a cooling period on our 2nd mnth ! imagine tht ! you might not think anyth abt it but i do ! i knw you said sorry already but sorry no cure . if sorry can actually solve everyth , why would there be laws and police and all . make sense ? i dont want to break up with you ! and i doubt i'll be able to get over ths . its like an obsession . now i wont have anyone to tell my problems , tht someone to be there whn i need him and tht someone to love again . but its okaay . everything happens fr a reason . i had a hard time accepting ths fact but anyway i still have to . but since things have turned out this way , i cannot do anyth else because youre the one who initiated the break up . we jst put down the phone and whn you said we could still be friends , yeah sure . it hurt but i have to adapt to changes right . i cnt be clinging on to you until forever . i guess i have to move on . well only time can heal the wound . whatever it is i nvr regret being with you . i guess it jst wasnt meant to be ? i dont knw . if it was meant to be , thn we'll jst have to see . we got ourselves into this problem . well i'll definitely miss hanging out with you , miss talking otp with you . basically miss everyth about you . we can be friends but thts gna be a whole different thing .
well , i guess this ends everything . i hope to hear frm you soon my friend .
takecare .
i still love you but it doesnt matter anymore .
; ayeen ♥
31/03/2009