describe me best .
So im quite upset with myself today for not being able to study . I simply cannot absorb anything that i read . Its like there's something bothering me which i dont really knw wht . There's 2 major papers coming up . Both requires me to memorise a lot of things definitely . And i actually woke up at 1o am today jst to study so that i will have more thn enough time to complete all tht but damn ths brain is not working ! I get worked up everytime i think abt the papers thats coming up because i knw i will have to need a lot of time to memorise that . Plus if i sleep late , how am i suppose to wake up early the following day ? Damn today suck big time ! ): What's worse is that my mom wants to clean up our room because granny is coming over which means i have to waste my time cleaning up my room ! Fuck ! Out of all times , it had to be now . When i really need the time to study for my exams . How can the day get any worse ? ): I dont really knw why im feeling down right now . Might be due to what i jst mention or maybe something else ? Im not quite sure myself . Ths moodswing can really come and go you knw . Because of the fact that im frustrated with myself , im not really entertaining anyone at home right now including my sister although she seems to be the closest one to me . Things jst seem to get on my nerves today . What's up with today ?! Thank god i still have ths blog to do my ranting . At least it wont get on my nerves. i hope ? Well what the hell . Whats even worse is i havent really been talking to him or to put it in simpler terms , ive kind of neglected him these past few days . Might be due to exam stress . You , i hope you understand . Its not that im doing all this on purpose but really . I think i jst cannot balance my time well . Like you said prelims or even O's , its gna get worst . I really hope you understand . I will definitely get back to you after the examination but for the time being , im sorry if im neglecting you . ): i love you . I dont knw whts happening to me . But yeah . FML ! Its really frustrating to knw you have a lot of time on your hands now but youre not making the best out of it . I jst want to get ths examination over and done with please ..

till the next time.
; ayeen♥